It is getting more and more challenging to write the book. Finally crossing the half-way mark and completed the 7th chapter! Am so blessed to have pals from the writer's group to keep me on track each time. :)
Ever felt like you've been stripped of all things...people you love...things you're proud of...and power you enjoy? I have.
The whole of last year was like travelling in the desert. I returned to my first workplace after 7 years. It was surreal meeting the same people, entering the same places, yet I no longer felt the same. It felt like facing Ground Zero, with a new perspective. Had I matured or what?
Last year was a year of understanding the true meaning of submission to authority; from team leaders to superiors to God. Some one once asked "If all you had to do is to be a donkey and wait around for the King to arrive, would you do it?" I resented that idea for I pride myself to be a diligent person. I'm proud of my excellence at work. I'm no slacker! I can't imagine a life just standing around doing nothing much the whole day...and that was what happened to me. I was no longer a youth leader. I worked with a superior totally different from me. I worked hard but failed in a major project. Life was new, but I endured. I made clear I understood I was a team member, a subordinate and a work-in-progress. Many times, I ate the humble pie and recognise I was wrong about myself and others. Many times, I've learnt I know less than what I think I do.
This year is a year of pressing on. For the first time in many years of my life...a team I worked with won in a National Racial Harmony Free Media Competition. To think that it was the only team sent in and won 1st runners-up...it's amazing. A recent circumstance put me back in touch with the same youths I care very much for. Am going start a new youth group again.
Dancing has a strange way of making you very aware of your body. 3rd session of hiphop and bellydance at Dance Castle. Am three-quarters into the hiphop routine...Derek, my instructor praised me for my sharp moves today! So so HaPPY. :) Hoping to shred a couple more percentile, so I'd look more sleek and sharper in front of the studio mirror. Am struggling with the belly-dance moves tho' Stepanie is a brilliant instructress. Me feel like a wooden block. A fat wooden block, blah. ~
*Shirleen offered new Jive and Waltz classes today. 3 guys already interested...awaiting female partners to kickstart the class. V rare...
Someone prayed and reminded me of God's mercy of bringing back the israelites after the exiles recently.
"I'm the one who takes away, but I'm also the one to give back."